After loving him and making sacrifices for our relationship,he dump me

After 10 abōrtions he dump me. I'm heartbroken 💔 Learn from my experience, I was a virgin he start promising me marriage, I have done 10 abortions in 1year of relationship, got message this afternoon saying that he will not marry me again, he has blocked me everywhere. I have been crying 😭😭

What should I do please? Should I kill him or make him mad .. What should I do 🙏 I'm confused